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Just So It's Published, So You Can See It Any Time...:)   
10:53pm 06/04/2005
mood: accomplished
Rachel's Worship Mix because she joined the iTunes cult.
(all from WOW Worship CD unless otherwise noted)
1. Audience of One by Big Daddy Weave
2. Be Thou My Vision by Jars of Clay
3. Better Is One Day by FFH
4. Breathe by Rebecca St. James
5. Every Move I Make by Out of Eden
6. Famous One by Passion - Our Love is Loud
7. God of Wonders by Mac Powell
8. Great Light of the World by Bebo Norman
9. I Can Only Imagine by Mercy Me - The Worship PRoject
10. I Could Sing of Your Love Forever by Sonicflood
11. In The Secret by Sonicflood
12. On My Knees by Jaci Velasquez - Heavenly Place
13. Shout To The Lord by Mark Schultz
14. Shout To The NOrth by New Life Band - Contemporary Christian
15. Step By Step by Rich Mullins
16. Testify to Love by Avalon - WOW 1999
17. The Heart of Worship by Passion
18. YOu are My All in All by Nicole Nordeman

Rachel CD 2
1. gonna be a lovely day by kirk franklin from the nu nation project
2. just keep swimming from finding nemo
3. in the light by jars of clay from jesus freak
4. blessed to be a witness by ben harper from diamonds on the inside
5. the way you look tonight from father of the bride
6. jesus freak by dc talk from jesus freak
7. stand by bebo norman from ten thousand days
8. seize the day from newsies
9. picture of jesus by ben harper from diamonds on the inside
10. somewhere over the rainbow by israel kamakawi
11. audience of one by big daddy weave from WOW worship
12. part of your world by jodi benson from the little mermaid
13. meant to live by switchfoot from the beautiful letdown
14. famous one by passion from our love is loud
15. america by chita rivera & marilyn cooper from west side story
16. somebody like you by keith urban from golden road
17. on my knees by jaci velasquez from heavenly place
18. the river of dreams by billy joel from the essential billy joel

phew! tell me if you need anything else! :)
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10:31pm 06/04/2005
mood: drunk
My Current Playlist (April 2005).

1. April Come She Will - Simon & Garfunkel
2. Trip Around the Sun - Jimmy Buffett
3. In My Life - The Beatles
4. Mr. Brightside - The Killers
5. No Right Angels - Ben Lee
6. One, Two Step - Ciara feat. Missy Elliott
7. Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley
8. Saturday Sun - Nick Drake
9. Song For You - Alexi Murdoch
10. Take Me Out - Franz Ferdinand
11. The Further I Slide - Badly Drawn Boy
12. Treading Water - Nada Surf
13. Wayfaring Sons - Colin Hay
14. You Part the Waters - Cake
15. Jesus, Etc. - Wilco
16. The Shadowlands - Ryan Adams
17. Alternative Baby - Reel Big Fish
18. Color Bars - Elliott Smith
19. Diamond Dogs - Beck
20. Going Under (A Cappella) - UPenn Off The Beat
07:00pm 22/01/2005
mood: artistic
According to the SelectSmart.com Belief System Selector, my #1 belief match is Orthodox Quaker. </br> What do you believe?</b></a> Visit SelectSmart.com/RELIGION
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Back in Action   
10:56pm 19/01/2005
mood: cold
Rachel, I have been inspired by your live journal. Practice, I will. Take LJ out of my profile, I must. I'll also stop writing internet prose like Yoda, sorry haha. Now it's everyone's own responsibility to visit this site.

So thank god this weekend was a long one, because I can no longer handle a full week of school. I know, it's sad, but I genuinely abhor my classes right now. I'm in stupid calc, and today we had a quiz - i am so clueless! it was so hard! I don't understand this "e" nonsense. natural logs? please. don't waste my time with this annoying math! ever since sophomore year, mr. fuller has insisted on screwing up my life with these ridiculous quizzes and tests.

On saturday night I was a big loser and watched Shrek 2 with my parents and sister. But we all had a really good laugh. Then on Sunday I went out with the girls (sallie, tric, and alison) for Bertucci's for an un-18th birthday celebration for Tricia. Oh man, alison's tiramisu...my favorite dessert...my little berry dish just did not compare.

I've been working like CA-RAZY these past few days. 9-3 Sun, 3-9:30 Mon, 4-7:30 Tues. It was UNBELIEVABLY crowded on MOnday. I wanted to DIE!!! parents are so inattentive sometimes too.

I kinda miss not going to musical rehearsal at all, since it's been such a big part of my life for three years, but i'm slowly getting over it. My mom and I have seriously bonded lately - we were supposed to have a squash date today but I got very hung up reading Pride and Prejudice and she fell asleep.

oh - new show obsession - while i work out on the ellipse machine downstairs i watch CSI. it's like a puzzle! so fun!

The snow is lovely here in Concordtown. tomorrow caitlin returns to bowdoin. I'm going up to visit her soon, i think. probably sometime near or during feb break. but maybe it would be more fun to spend a few days in, say, NYC? ;). would that be an option? oh - but i just found out the best news - the chinese and art classes i will be taking next year fulfill my humanities requirement. NO MORE ENGLISH! i am such a happy camper.

oh happy camper...
speaking of which, gotta get that DR app finished...even if i don't get in, it's no big deal, because at least i tried, right? ;)
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11:20pm 17/01/2005
mood: accomplished
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Having FAR too much fun with internet quizzes...   
04:09pm 13/01/2005
  I know, I know, I have no life.

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03:57pm 13/01/2005
mood: cold

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Nice Guys.   
12:00am 10/01/2005
mood: thankful
***This is my own personal tribute to the "nice guys." boys, we girls appreciate you. we do. you'll get your vindication someday. oh, and by the way, girls are not "illogical, manipulative bitches" thank you VERY much. and c'mon! - the author's friends are unbelievably dramatic. but anyway, eamonn stole this from chris ting because chris stole eamonn's fleece in middle school. i have no excuse for stealing this from eamonn because as far as i know, eamonn has never stolen anything from me. so i guess the theft makes me one of those "illogical, manipulative bitches..." haha juuuust kiddding. read on. :)***

Ode to the Nice Guys
This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003
Reunion and such...   
08:56pm 09/01/2005
mood: nostalgic
Hey everyone!

Ok so the reunion was so fun! I miss my ldps already...you are all so wonderful. keep calling me - i love and want to keep in touch, i promise, i just suck at calling people!!!

So instead of going to Bio this Friday I'm have to go be a tour guide for Carlisle 8th graders hehehe. Should be interesting...

Nothing too exciting...school...whatev. If you are a CC-er, make sure to come to see comedian Jimmy Tingle on Sunday, January 30, at 7PM in the auditorium. Invite your friends and family! To reserve tickets, send your name, phone #, and desired # of tickets to JimmyTingleTickets@yahoo.com. He's a really well known comedian with his own comedy club. Don't miss out! $$ goes to my Chinese class's China Trip in April. WOO WHOO i'm soo excited for china!!!!

So...doing homework, studying for my Chinese test? um. no.

LDPs - please send me links to pix from this weekend! Thanks!
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09:59pm 15/11/2004
mood: nostalgic
hey guys...not much to write, except i wanted to share one of my favorite pics from this summer (i just think we all look cute dressed up)...
swing forever! @ the boston reunion we will go to swing city in cambridge and have a night o' fun ... :)
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You Know You're From Massachusetts When...   
10:45am 14/11/2004
mood: peaceful
You Know You're From Massachusetts When...
The person driving in front of you is going 70 mph and you are cursing him for going too slow.
You actually enjoy driving around rotaries.
You almost feel disappointed when someone doesn't flip you the bird when you cut them off or steal their parking space.
You know how to pronounce the names of towns like Worcester, Billerica, Haverhill, Barre and Cotuit.
You have driven to New Hampshire on a Sunday in order to get beer.
You know that there are two Bulger brothers, and that they're both crooks.
You know what they sell at a packie.
You know at least one bar where you can get something to drink after last call.
You can actually find your way around Boston.
Evacuation Day is a recognized holiday.
You know what First Night is.
You know at least one guy named Sean, Pat, Whitey, Red, Bud or Seamus.
You think the rest of the country owes you for Thanksgiving and Independence Day.
You have never been to Cheers.
When the words 'WICKED' and 'GOOD' go together.
You knew that there was no chance in hell that the Pats would move to Hartford.
You have gone to at least one party at UMass.
The curse of the Bambino is taught in public schools.
You own a "Yankees Suck" shirt or hat.
You think Doug Flutie is the greatest athlete ever.
You remember exactly where you were when the ball rolled through Buckner's legs.
You pray for the Red Sox to win the World Series not this season, but in your lifetime. (uuuh they did!!!! HELL YEAH!)
You know how to make a frappe.
You know that "Big Dig" is also a kind of ice cream you can get at Brigham's.
You actually know how to merge from 6 lanes of traffic down to one.
You never go to "Cape Cod", you go "down the Cape".
You think that Roger Clemens, Wade Boggs and Derek Jeter are more evil than Whitey Bulger.
You went to Old Sturbridge Village, Plymouth Plantation, or both, on field trip in grammar school. (or orchard house, if you live in concord or carlisle)
You can drive to the mountains and the ocean all in one day.
You know that the Mass Pike is some sort of strange weather dividing line.
You know that P-Town isn't the name of a new rap group.
You do not recognize the letter "R" as a part of the English language.
You've called something "wicked pissa"
You have driven to either Rhode Island, New Hampshire or Vermont for a tattoo.
You see people like Steven Tyler (Aerosmith), Dicky Barret (The Mighty, Mighty Bosstones), and Evan Dando (The Lemonheads) in the local supermarket and it doesn't phase you. (side note from hayle! or mr. rogers!!! i met him in the supermarket!!!!!!!! he lives in MY neighborhood! actually it was on nantucket)
You've slammed on your brakes to deter a tailgater (did this last night)
Know at least three Tony's, one Vinnie and a Frank(ie)
Paranoia sets in if you can't see a Dunkin Donuts, ATM or CVS within eyeshot at all times.
You keep an ice scraper and can of de-icer on the floor of your car...year round
You still try to order curly fries from Burger King
You order iced coffee in January
You know what candlepin bowling is
You've pulled out of a side street and used your car to block oncoming traffic so you can make a left.
You've bragged about the money you've saved at The Christmas Tree Shop
You know what a "regular" coffee is
You actually get these jokes.
12:01pm 10/11/2004
mood: nerdy
here i am, home from school, because i think i am coming down with something. i also need to finish my college applications. (my essay). welll....it's done! hooorah! i still have a few essays to go for supplements, but those aren't due until JANUARY FIRST. thank the lord. i put down that i feel nerdy just because i really like the little blue guy with the glasses on. i think it's cute haha. but generally i feel pleasantly nerdy so that's ok. NERD CLUB LIZ DOLFI HAYLEY MCHUGH PROUD MEMBERS pkurtz you know you want to join...

tonight i'm staying @ holy cross with celeste! yay! it's gonna be so much fun! i can't wait!

matt nix and i were talking yesterday about spelling problems. we are both perfectly intelligent people, but sometimes, it's hard to spell, you know? yesterday i tried to spell preferred, and started spelling it preff...then stopped and realized that at that moment, i couldn't spell it. we started talking about the word bizarre - isn't it BIZARRE that there are two "r"s??? i know! it's so weird! then when i got home my dad couldn't spell "eight" and didn't feel like an idiot anymore. sorry random tangent...

ok so my life is sooo boring...which i realized when i tried to write a college essay.

jump for my love ldps...the ts will be finished by this saturday...!!!!!! sorry it's taken me so long girlios (and guys)
06:20pm 07/11/2004
mood: hopeful
ooh man it's been so long since i've last written in this!

i'm in the middle of studying of a calc test, so i need to make this quick...

soo last weekend i visited my sister which was sooooo0o0o0o much fun!!! oh man we hung out a lot and went to a halloween party and it was a generally fabulous time. i went to her bartending class where caitlin placed second, yes second, in a contest to determine who was the master of drink-mixing. that girl makes me proud. :) haha. jk.

so as soon as i got home it was work work work work. i HATE the end of the quarter!!!!! friday was terrible...ach. but on friday night i went to a young life dinner then to barnes and noble and old navy w/ meghan, which was super fun! on saturday i slept a lot and finished college apps (almost). and today i worked from 12 to 5 which was fun, esp bc alison was working w/ me from 3-5. poor girl - she's still there now, as i am writing this! yuck!

i got this message on saturday with unidentifiable music playing in the backgroud and this girl singing along at the top of her lungs. then i started to hear the pointer sister's voices as they belted "jump for my love!" and of course, i recognized the half-crazed girl singing along to be none other than MACON (rhymes with bacon) HOLLISTER. hahaha it was seriously so funny. then she left me a great upbeat message. but i hope the said party was not driving at the time because whoa look out :). i love you mac!!!!! i promise i will call you back soon!

aaaand i got to talk to my dolf this weekend who is all the way over in london...PROUD CO-FOUNDERS OF THE NERD CLUB!

missing all my camp people like mad...
Happy Halloween Everyone...   
10:46pm 28/10/2004
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love that dirty water...   
10:21pm 28/10/2004
mood: energetic

BOSTON YOU'RE MY HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
05:17pm 25/10/2004
mood: cold
Ok so back to school. yesterday i worked and learned how to take the pH levels of the pool. wow. i am excrutiatingly boring. i'm talking about pool pH levels. lol. Mondays. huh. I acutally kinda like Mondays because it's my good schedule day. I'm so scared to get my bio test back! ahhh!!! oh wow it was so funny though because when i was selling stuff for the HMUN conference there was this couple making out at one of the tables in the caf and they were like seriously going at it. liz and i could not stop laughing. especially when the girl dramatically left and then RAN back into the caf to give her honey some more kisses. ewwwie i haate PDA!!! at least it was really funny though. Oh man and my work schedule is so screwed up. I'm working five days in one week and then the rest of the month i'm only working twice. weird. anyway, life is dull other than that. I echo the sentiments of everyone else in LDP that i want to move into the prong' and grow old there...ahh...sigh...
4evR plaid   
11:04am 23/10/2004
mood: working
wooohooo a little dizzy. i'm so overtired.

went to see forever plaid last night w/ elise! it was soo cute!! good job dylan, alex, travis, mike! it was really cute. then i went back to elise's house and we talked for long time, which is nice because i feel like i barely see her nowadays.

anyway, today i'm pluggin away on the college essays. i'm going to get them DONE! yay! ok anyway, i'm going to work now!
08:13pm 21/10/2004
mood: excited
Oh wow - I watched history last night.
THE RED SOX ARE GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES!!!! YAAAY!!!! YANKEES SUCK! Boston, I still believe, we can do it! this is the year! reverse the curse!!!
"for boston, for boston, we sing our proud refrain..." (dropkick murphys)

college apps continue. ap bio test and calc quiz tomorrow morn'. just keep swimming just keep swimming just keep swimming swimming swimming. what do we do? we swim, swim, swim...
08:10pm 20/10/2004
mood: sad
Ok. so i finished an essay, had my dad read it, and then we both realized it 1) says little to nothing about me and 2) does not answer the question. why am i wasting away so much of my life on these DUMB essays?? why can't i write about anything interesting??? it seems like every time I have an idea i realize it's one of the "taboo" ideas - like the admissions people will think oooh poor little white girl growing up in the suburbs going through such "hardships" and think that i'm shallow because someone else talks about how they had to sell their own liver on the black market to pay their sister's medical bills. i am a normal, happy person (except when I'm writing college essays) so why can't i act like that in an essay??????? i'm thankful, very thankful that i've had such a nice life...and it's not my fault if nothing monumental has happened in my life to write about. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm just so stressed about this whole stupid thing. ok sorry needed to vent while i'm sitting @ my computer having a breakdown. also, i have absolutely no idea where i want to go...i think one place, then freak out because i think i'm making the wrong decision...i just feel like i have no direction. oh man.
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07:47pm 19/10/2004
mood: calm
So today, although I am under house arrest until an unspecified time, I am feeling calm. This is mostly because I don't have a lot of work and because I'm trying to take the day off from school tomorrow. But the college fair is happening, and I also need to discuss my art slides with Mr. Pickman (choose the best 15-20).

Today I also got my recommendation back from Mrs. Beauvais - hoorah! I'm so, so, so! happy that a science rec worked out so well!!!! Now i CAN apply premed! Mrs. Tessari knows me so well by now. As soon as she got the letter from Mrs. B she put it out on her desk so I could just take the copy lol.

Today Tricia told me the funniest little anecdote...she is going to be famous someday. Haha.

Alison, I want you to stop bothering me about my Balzac. I'm going to get it out one of these days :) (wow I've taken this inside joke tooooo far).